Surrender?

I don’t want to surrender

It feels weak

It feels like giving up

It feels like losing

I want to win

I want to lead

I want to fight

They wronged me

They attacked me

Now I have to go make nice

To soothe their ego?

How does that help anyone?

Yet I know

This could make my life miserable

It isn’t worth the mess

When all is said and done

This will grow my character

This will push me forward

But why does it feel like betrayal

To let this go

Why does it feel like selling my soul

To apologize

When do I get to make a stand?

I guess it works

Because I am not surrendering to them

I am surrendering to You

You don’t care about “my way”

But you do love me